Just a short post to say im sick. Still. Unfortunately. Stupid stomachache. Tomorrow maybe skip school go see doctor.

And my lappy, need wait 2 more weeks ._. Now, fujitsu really sucks. Get parts also so long.


Oh! I have another new idol. I mean, i like him before. But now i like him more.
He is...

方大同!!! Omg. Dont be mistaken by the 'nerdy' look. He sings great & composes great songs too. That R&B feel. Very nice!!! And i think he looks cool also. I absolutely love his voice.

Then again, time to practise my singing. Bye.

P.s. Going to pulau tekong for CIP on wednesday. 12pm to 5pm.I knew i forgot something.

Gosh. I had a long day today man.


Anyway, Vocals today was very stressful & scary with Peter老师. I dont know why, its like whenever i have lesson with him, i will feel scared that he will scold me. Cuz he really does.

Then... really got scolded... Pitching really not good. Well, what to do. It really is my fault for not practising much on my pitching and focusing on emoting my song.
Well, my emoting should be okay. Peter老师 didnt critisize my emoting.

I guess i really have to buck up on my pitching.

And there something happened today. When Peter老师 was finding out my lesson for the day. He asked why wasnt i singing other songs and still singing 很想你.

Then i told him that Rollin老师 spends more time on improving my pitching etc.
And he said that i may have to continue more lessons or retain, cuz my learning speed slower than others.

Sad. Make me nearly sianed for the whole day.


Went back and slacked with some friends. One of them keep bully me. I dont want say :P

Anyway, next week's plan.

Monday- School till 5.30pm
Tuesday- School till 4.30pm
Wednesday-School till 12pm. Practise @mc. 2pm
Thursday-School till 3pm, TongTong's birthday/farewell celebration @mc.7pm. Need present for entry.
Friday-School till 12pm(maybe skip school), kbox with ChiaoChen jie & ZiCong.2pm


Hectic week coming up again. And i keep having the feeling i have something on wednesday. But i cant rmb what. Hope not though. And i have to get tongtong a present. Its gonna be the last time see-ing her for who knows how long. Must take picture as memorial too :D

And i hate Fujitsu. Repair my lappy say 2-3weeks. Now already 3 weeks le. Tomorrow have to call and ask for my lappy already.


Nvm. Update again.

Yea. Officially sick since monday. Been sneezing and having a running nose like nobody's business. And i cant even sing properly because of it.

I hope i get well soon. Feel so weak everyday...


Anyway, i have been very stressed up lately. School, friends, singing. Im really very tired already. I seriously think im gonna break down soon.


There's something which i wanna say.


To Miss S,

I dont know why you have been avoiding me. Treating me as invisible. However, i think it was my fault. I dont know if im right or wrong. But in any case, im sorry. I do hope that we still can be friends. It really hurts me when i lose a friend. Even if you still choose to ignore me, im fine with it. If it really was my fault, then i deserve it. I doubt you will read my blog. Hopefully, things will get better. Anyway, i still wish you all the best.




Okay, back to topic. My final vocal assessment is coming. If i pass it, i will get into Performing class. If i dont, retain. This time, the standards are gonna be higher... if im still not up to standard to sing outside. I will not be able to make it.



Then there's teen games 3v3 basketball tournament coming in december. I still have alot of work to do.


And in the mist of all this, im struggling to find my true self. I just feel like i lost myself & i have changed. But its for me to find out.



I hope everything turns out well.

I just got back from a concert at esplanade concert hall where Peter老师 and several other 1979-1989 singers were having a concert.

Went with jia qing, eric zhu & auntie Magaret. Saw leonard & yvonne there too. Lazy to give details.

Anyway, there were all kinds of old singing. I found it a lil boring. Probably cuz i wasnt born in that decade and couldnt appreciate oldies that much. But when Peter老师's turn came. Everything really changed. Probably cuz they were songs i had heard of before.

When i looked at Peter老师, i feel so envious of his good voice. Seeing how he looks so happy and enjoying himself while singing on stage makes me wanna sing. I want to improve more. I want to be as good as him... no... i want to do better than him.



Anyway, Happy 1st month to me and baby. I love you :D

Today's kbox session was very successful.

Was able to catch the key for my songs. Until near the end. Where my voice was starting to get tired and blah. My ears got tired too.

I thought i did quite well today. Even on songs i never even sang/tried before. I really improved man! But very tiring. And i tend to go off pitch/key once in awhile.

Area for improvement! Will keep working on it!

And that shimin, make me sing most of the songs, then she just listen. So tiring lor... Went home after kbox session.


Now waiting for baby's call. She's gonna reach singapore anytime now.


Oh! And Nash had 20assists today :)

I hate it when i have a plan and something happens to make me improvise. Im just so tired and worn out that i dont even want to care. I do understand that not all things go your way all the time. Well, what to do.

Kbox-ing with shimin later in the afternoon, yet i woke up near 5am. Whats worse, i found out that there's a ulcer in my mouth. So pissed now.

I just realised that i have been looking for the balance that in my soul lately. More of fumbling about it though. Sometimes i get too serious, sometimes i have too much fun.

And all other factors start to come in, obstacles, expectations, commitment etc.



Well, on the bright side, baby's coming back tonight. I could use a good hug.

Here's a picture of our 3v3 team. Taken yesterday for memorial sake. (pardon my ugly expression)

(left to right)

Kenny, Future MVP, jonathan, gazali.

Gonna try get some more sleep now. Nights.